Glass-Air Boundary

♥Monday, June 23, 2008

Oh my!! It's only another 5 hours before I have to wake up for school! I'm dreading it but I guess I can't avoid it. *Tsk Tsk* Bye Bye long hours of sleep and computer.

Hmm.. I guess it'll be good to be back in school. Guess only.. And I'll be leaving for OBS on tuesday. Bahh!! No friend! No friend! Nehmind, independent. Wahaha. Macam pa.

4 days away from home. I guess I'll miss alot of stuff. But it's not like I've never been for a 4 day 3 night camp; I have. And I'm confident I can survive this on my own. What's there to lose anyway right? I'm gamed for it cause I'm in it for the experience and it's not like opportunities like this come by often.

Well, I guess I'm supposed to be asleep right now. Or I'll have an extremely hard time waking up tomorrow morning. Awww, poor little Roszy. :(

Hehee. Wish me luck on my first day of school for my second semester! ♥

12:07:00 am;

♥Saturday, June 21, 2008

I'm currently B-O-R-E-D at home and I'm R-O-T-T-I-N-G . Currently editting some of yesterday's pics. Will put them up once I'm done.

I must say yesterday was quite a success. Almost all of us made it but only a couple of them had to pull out last minute for whatever reasons. Had our bowling session at Safra Tampines and I emerged as the loser! Someone willing, do teach me how to bowl!! I scored a 42 out of 300. Pathetic. I know. -__-

Had our dinner at Al-Salam, somewhere near Safra. I had Nasi Goreng Kerabu and I tell you, it was Delicious!! We headed down to Persisi after dinner only to find out they charged $5 for entry of the opening. Rubbish oii! They never charged a cent in previous years. Money-greedy jerks!

Well, I was happy enough to meet my buddies after what seemed like AEONS! Happy happy. I'm such a happy-goober right now.

I don't have much to blog about today. And school's starting in less then 2 days! My-oh-my, a month just flew by. And I'm certainly not looking forward to school. Blearghh..

Ooh! Ooh! I'll be away for OBS from tuesday to friday. And I have a feeling Nasy is not going. Dear god, please make her do. I don't wanna be alone. *Tsk Tsk* :((

(^^,)

Her name is Bella.

She's the little girl who likes to interrupt my photos.

That's my bestie Leha and her darling, Khairi.

Now that's my dearest borther and his missy.

This are only the photos from my handphone. More from Abang's camera. But the camera's with his girlfriend. Boohoo.. Will put them up once I get the camera back!!

7:29:00 pm;

♥Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Damn it, I just need someone to talk to. Someone who listens rather then hears. Someone who's willing rather then forced. It seems like one by one, they're leaving. And slowly, I'm left here standing alone and all I see are backs turned. I can't figure out why. God. Help me.

It seems I keep messing everything up. Am I not contented with what I already have? Maybe, just maybe I'm not. I keep searching for a person to fall back on, to keep me rooted. Someone whom I can come to, who's deeper then bones. 'Cause right now, I'm crumbling into a million pieces- more than sands on beaches, more then stars in the night sky. Sooner or later, I'll lend at ground zero and it's only a matter of time now.

I'm keeping it together, atleast I seem okay. Atleast I think so. I'm only human. I've got my pride, I will not cry but its making me weak. I guess I'm just going to have to go through the motion.

I'm not that kind of girl that you can let down and think everything's ok. Boy, I'm only human. Look into the corners of your mind and you'll see that I've been there for you through good and bad times. But at the same time, I can't be that Superwoman that you want me to be.

I think I've lost myself. I don't seem to recognise who I am and what I stand for anymore. Is this the result of giving too much? Someone just hear me out.

11:40:00 pm;

♥Monday, June 16, 2008

Mom's pissed at me right now. Hahha. Reason being, there's a chance I might not be going for Band Camp. Well, I've made up my mind and I shall stick to it as far as possible.

She said, "Go la dek, hmm.. You ehh, I don't understand you laa.. Silat kau stengah-stengah, now this."

I can't disagree on that cause it's true. But right now, at this point of my life, I'm still trying to find what's much much more important. And it has got to be my studies for sure. Cause my grades ain't getting any better- infact, it's dropping and dropping like there's no end to it. And to be frank, I've never been this scared for my grades before. Never.

Till I buck up on my grades then I'll be able to commit myself to more time consuming activities such as so on and so forth. Other then that, I have to set that priority of mine right.

On a lighter note, today was one of the better days. Had the SS course earlier today. Wouldn't say it was total boredom but atleast it was more engaging then your usual SS periods.

Went to Orchard just now with a newfriend. (^^,) Owh! Ooowh!! And I saw a pair of shoes which were adorable!! They're from a brand called Sanuk which means 'Happy' in Thai. If I'm not wrong, they're a Californian brand. Thinking of getting them. Geramm nyeee akuuu!! Saw another cute pair of pumps at Topshop but I'd rather buy the other one I saw although it'll burn a huge hole in my pocket after buying it. Hehh. But I think it's worth it; at least it looks comfy. Hee.

I think today turned out well. Tomorrow's plans are still unconfirmed.

"An amaglam of emotions. I think I've fallen for you."

Sanuk-Taos.

11:21:00 pm;

To think I'd blog at 1.17 AM. Hahh. I must be nuts. Never have I ever thought I'd do this. It must be the boredom. Hahha.

Well, there's school tomorrow for me. Damn it. Stupid Social Studies course. God knows if it's even effective.

Hmm.. Pratically stayed home the whole day and rot. Mama just came home from her shopping trip at Batam with my aunties and uncles. And guess whatt?? It's finally the last week of the school holidays! SHOUT CHAOS!! Hahha. To tell you, 0% of my work is done. And I'm doomed. Someone shoot me!

Anyways, I realise there's something funny about some of my friends. For example Browne. Everytime I open up a conversation with him on MSN in the middle of the night, without fail, there'll be a time when we talk about shit. Yes, shit. Like maniure. (Avoid if there's a spelling error) And what's weird is, Din also has the same habit. -_____- God have mercy on them. I have a feeling it's because it's the middle of the night and stuff happens.

I know I'm not making sense right now. Therefore, it's time for me to hit the sack. Goodbye my lovers.

1:16:00 am;

♥Friday, June 13, 2008

Hey, I'm bored. So I'm back here after ages and agess. I ain't gonna tell anyone I updated cause I wanna see who even bothers to visit my dead blog after so long. Hehh.

I once had a dream of blogging full time like my bestie Nasy. But I dreamt of blogging for a purpose. I dreamt of blogging to improve my englishh. *ke-tiaoo* No, seriously, I really did. Well, who bothers anyway. Hahha.

I ain't making any sense ehh?

Okayy.

Maybe, just maybe, I would start blogging again. Maybe I said.

Well, going out soon to help mom deliver some cakes to houses.

And I'm still considering if I should go swimming at night. Alone of course. Hahh, pathetic ehh?

4:30:00 pm;

♥Sunday, April 20, 2008

Hello. Haven't been blogging for awhile now. Comp's spoilt and the pc was sent for repair. So now i'm happily using dad's laptop to finish up my work.

Well, mid-years are coming and i haven't started revising. I'm so dead i tell you. I haven't got much to blog about today besides tha fact that i went for madrasah just now after not attending class for almost two months. And the ustazah is a releave ustazah. Boring one. "....macam gitu kalau imam jadi perempuan." Hahh. She wanted to say 'perempuan jadi imam' but i think she tersasol.

Bored uhh. Hmm.. I've got some new pics. Will upload them later.

Shit. This is a bloody damn boring post. Oh well, don't bother reading on then. I could shoot myself right now. Nahh, just kidding. Damn itt. I'm not even making sense any more. Maybe I should just stop here. Yeahh, right here.

TK Band, Batch of 2009

TK Band, Basses- Outdoor 2009

Babats is ♥

3:47:00 pm;

♥Monday, March 24, 2008

Doing my physics worksheet now. Feeling real bored at home. It's a rest day today so no band prac. And somehow, I feel lost without band. Hahah. Crap, but serious. I feel like there's nothing to do and wonder what other things to do other then the homework which is piling up. All I did is laze around at home. Urrghhh. Not a nice feeling. Also, there's no one to like entertain me at home. I'd rather have band and slog my ass out mann. At least, I know I'm doing something worth doing.

Haven't been updating lately cause I've been busy with school. Been back late almost every single day. Been under the sun almost every single day. Well, 14 DAYS. Not much I tell you. I don't really want outdoor to end that fast mann. Only mid-April and everything is done with. No kick. And it's my last outdoor. I wanna suffer more! Hahha. Serious, no kidding. What's there to lose right? I'd be happier if I'm suffering more now. Cause I know all of it will be more worth it when we win. Insya'Allah.

Hehh. I just downloaded the song on Nasy's blog. Nicee.

Going out later to meet Loverboy. Studying at the library most probably. Yeahh.

Shitt, I'm missing the sec 4s already. Hahha. Belss. I don't want them to leave sehh.

Hahha. Nuts uhh.

K, some pics now.

The Good Friday